His Birthday Part I

I still remember what i did
for his 2008 birthday.

I plan everything in 8 stages.
(Wait, i got to take my Thinker book where
i record everything)

I want to make it memorable
Different
Something he'd remember

So i plan everything
started from 1st July

His 1st July gift was a poem
(For the love of God i can't remember
what was the poem about)
But i still remember when i gave him the card that
contains the poem, he was
so afraid to take it.
He thought it was a love confession ke apa.

His 2nd July gift was biscuits
from Famous Amos
(I know he loves it)
I gave the black colored ones; my fave!

His 3rd gift was a book i think
(Its entitled Its Not How Good You Are,
Its How Good You Want To Be)
I also got a copy of the book.
Now, why the book? Its bcos
its easy, simple and something
that i was sure he'd read.
(He doesn't read much)

His 4th gift was a duit-duit plant.
I sent it to his house that day.
(Lain dari lain, kan?)

His 5th gift was a container of chocs
from Famous Amos
(You know the small rocks with
various colors? Yeah, that one!)
He never eat it. He kept it where
his friends can see it but he didn't allow
anyone to eat it.
(I think its still on his fridge
in the kitchen till today, unopened)

His 6th gift was a DVD.
(Its entitled Cruel Intentions)
Now why that particular story? Cos one, i love it.
I love the lesson in the story. And i directed
the lesson to him.

His 7th gift was a bouquet of flowers + 3 helium baloons.
The flowers were 'kekwa' i think; 3 different colors.
( I can't remember the colors)
And i add 3 helium baloons.
And i ask the shop to sent it
to our office.
(Yes, we were from the same
office)
Now there was a slight glitch in the
plan. These was supposed to arrive
on the 8th (on his birth-day) but
he was unavailable on that day.
So i ask the shop to send it
one day earlier. Hasten much? Luckily
they can do it. But you know what
sucks? I was elsewhere that evening
for a meeting that i cannot not go.
So i rely on my colleagues to
inform me how did he react upon
receiving those gifts.
He parade his gifts around at
the office.

And lastly, on the 8th day
i sms-ed him 2 pantuns.
(I did not keep the copy of
the pantuns nor remember what
was the pantuns all about)

So yeah, that what i did for his
2008 birthday.

His 2009? Oh i actually forgot.
I only remembered a few days later.
Then i bought him a set of Body Shop
products for men cos i like their perfume
on him.

His 2010 birthday, i brought him
to Xcess bookstore at Amcorp Mall
and let him choose any 4 books that he
wants.

I will regall you what happens in his
2011 birthday surprise.

Fingers crossed!

Why Am I So Sad?

These past two days,
Why am i so sad.
And ended up crying.

No matter how rationally
my brain give ideas on
how to divert this feeling
By doing things, concentrate
on others and such.
Its to no avail.

Maybe because of this
multi task capabilities
that i owned and good at
i do something but
think about it at the same
time
and sad, and think about why
why and why
and ended up crying while doing
something

Pathetic much

Wants so much to talk about
it to him
Have to cos i believe
in communicate my problems
and what ever it is in
my head to him so that
i can be solved
or at least heard. knew

So that he knows how i feel

But when is the right time
Fear, fear of disturbing him
At taking it out at a bad time
But then suffering in silence
is bad, bad enough
I need to say it.
I need to talk it out.
To him.
No one else.